Entry 31 (First, Camping ‘12)

5.24.12

So the other day I asked my gf to go camping with me. We went and it was fun until we fought about going/not going, getting sick/feeling sick, etc. Anyways, we drove there and I had an itchy/sore throat when we left then eventually turned into very bad cough. After we started the fire my gf asked if we should go home, and eventually made me feel better about the decision because ‘she wanted to go home’. (which was a total lie, but good in fact.)  We packed up our tent, cooler, and everything else we brought. We got back home safe and sound and brushed our teeth and headed to bed. We fell asleep fast, and comfortably. The weird part about all of this was the morning after, we took our showers, brushed our teeth, she ate, and we woke up. We woke up fine as ever, but after a few hours or so of being up I started getting irritated and eventually feel silent. I don’t know why either, thats why I’m so confused. I got mad at her? for what reason? for being an awesome girlfriend. She drove all the way home (from somewhere she’s never been before) 

I think the reason I’m so mad is with the fact that she didn’t know where we were or how to get home, once we were driving through familiar places. I got irritated, thinking silently ‘oh there’s where we always go to fix your car (o’reilys), oh, Mc.Donalds (we were there less than 12 hours ago…) etc etc.” She stated ‘wendals’ which mean wendy’s in our weird talk, which made me happy she knew where we were. The fact that she didn’t know where to go just really irritated me I guess, she asked “turn here?” which was on the complete opposite side of the village. No, how don’t you know? I just am so curious! ugh.

I know this is shitty, but mainly it’s shitty of me! She’s my girlfriend, and she’s giving it her all trying to learn and stuff. I need to put this behind me, but every once in a while I need to vent about it. Is this wrong? Gah welll…

if my gf is reading this now, know that I still love you, I just get irritated every once in a while. I love ya and I’m sorry about reacting dumb most of the time (it’s always, in the end, on me* ) lalu

ims 5.12
 

Angry I just lost the home I REALLY wanted! 
‘its for the best’
fuck that shit 

hushhhhhh

It’s Been Decided…

I’m selling the motorcycle, hopefully for good reason and I don’t regret this**

Fuck the Bull Shit

(am I right?)

Entry 30 (her)

Alright, soo first off, if you don’t wanna read this… Don’t* (no one asked you to…)

I am SO proud of my girlfriend, she has had a busy ass semester, and kept strong through it all. I myself took a few of the classes she took/is taking this semester and they were  full of prolonged ‘busy work’ (eng 102, a class I ended up failing.) She, although, is doing amazing! sure a few bad quiz scores here and there, but above all she is doing so much better then me! she’s working hard, and set a goal for herself. ‘4 years to graduate’. and I know she can do it, and it makes me soooo jealous! but pshh whatever she’s awesome! and I’m so proud of her and she’s just an awesome student, friend, partner, daughter, sister, etc. anyways…. if I had a drink in hand, here’s to Kaitlynn Bonner my girlfriend, lover and friend… I couldn’t have asked for a better girl at any moment in time. I love you babe and again am so proud of who you are and what you’ve become and I am SO excited to see how life will be with you in three months…. when we move in together. (love you babe*

- ims 5.12